Monday, August 28, 2017
So, the bad thing. Well, I was trying to have fun with my partner, and everything was set up and while I was nervous I was excited to try out some new things. However.. when I'm active, certain parts of our anatomy 'doesn't exist' for my awareness unless specific attention is paid to them. Even then, it doesn't feel normal for me. Well, that disconnect prevented me from being able to.. umm.. 'perform' in the required fashion. I tried, and.. well, nothing really came from it. It was frustrating, and a bit depressing. So yeah, learned something new: 'Samantha's enough of a woman that she's not able to do this kind of thing'.
Let's see, what else can we talk about?
Well, yeah. Wednesday, made it to Montreal, hung out with my friends, and got along well with my partner's significant other. They were cool, and we had some similar interests, so we got to chat about that. Thursday, I took my partner to see Spider-Man - and screwed up getting the tickets. I got them for the wrong theatre. So that became a more expensive trip than we'd hoped. Got to wander downtown, and went to McGill university, and enjoyed the farmer's market there. Also went to the 'gay district', and enjoyed wandering around and taking pictures too.
Friday was 'the experiment', and.. well, like I said. It didn't work out like I'd hoped.
Saturday, my partner had to go out for dinner with their significant other. It was a bigger affair than they'd expected, and ran late.. and I was lonely as hell. And apparently, the medication we're taking for our moods - St. John's Wort - isn't working as well as we'd hoped, because I crashed hard. And I've noticed we're reacting to some things a lot harder than we expected to. This isn't good. We may need to either up the dosage, or get the hard stuff, and we kind of wanted to avoid getting the hard stuff.
Sunday, we went to a 'munch', where people with a certain interest were able to gather and talk about stuff, knowing they have a common interest, and being able to be normal around one another. After hanging out for awhile, it was time to go home, and I kinda slept and rested on the bus ride home. Once home, Kit took over, and went to the Loon and Arrow with Cat. The serving girl was awesome, and it was a pleasant wrap to the trip.
So, looking forward to another trip to Montreal.
Looking forward to spending time with my partner.
Looking forward to seeing what I am capable of, and what we can do together.
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Samantha: Kit's given me the chance to go on vacation for the first time, so I'm spending five days in Montreal. I've never been in control like this, and I get to try being my own person during the trip. Sadly, this also means having to adult as well.
So far, so good. Though I had a weird dream, where I was talking to an artist friend online, while playing with myself. It wasn't sexual, when I did that, I sounded like a sitar. My girlfriend was there with me, as was her kind of furry persona, though human still. And then my sister in law came into the room, amazed at the sound I could make. We were at our old place.
Yeah, weird dream.